Oh dullness.

My motivation is just so unbelievably lost with the uni work, that I don't know what to do and where to start. I wasn't expecting this to happen to me, I've been a lot happier here now in the second year than in the first year. And I was working hard during the first semester, what happened to that? What happened to enjoying what I'm doing and studying?

I spent all day today watching telly and lying on the sofa in Rochester Street (Erno, Toby, Tiina and Anton live there). Should have been doing something else. Last weekend I was just watching films in Hugo's house with him. Should have started doing something then.
I just can't get myself to concentrate on anything really, I'm restless in a bad way. It's not like I'm doing other stuff or personal projects, I'm not doing anything.

Nothing's moving. We still have mice, still haven't got heating (the coldest winter months are gone now, so doesn't really matter anymore), I still haven't made up my mind where to live next year, I don't know what to do with the summer and where to live, I'm broke and not doing anything about it... I could continue the list, but it would be just depressing.

My brother told me that the lack of motivation is just something that happens to everybody at some point in their studies. Please tell me it is so and how to get over it. Like I said, I wasn't expecting this at all. I think I've been doing quite well or at least okay with my studies until now, it's been clear to me that I want this and want to learn and work hard. Oh I don't know. I guess one of the problems is that we haven't really been receiving any feedback at all. It doesn't really encourage or challenge you, does it?

I'll post some pictures when I can. I took my little sisters to the studio when they were here, and a week before that I continued with my national identities series and we ended up fooling around in the studio with Ben and Tracy and a pair of Aingeru's old trousers. I have a couple of more random polaroids too. And more pictures from the model village. And some party pictures.

I finally got one decision made in my life: I'm coming to Finland for a week later on this month. I've decided it's going to be lots of fun.